Hey guys!

  I am back again! While I was reading about my recent blog post I realized that I have not yet replied that person! I must have forgotten about it when I left my laptop and got my hands on the phone. I am so easily distracted! Nowadays, I always experience this thing where I have a task at hand and right as I was about to do it, I will ask myself, "What is it that I am doing again?". YES, I have STM( short term memory for some people's benefit) and I have many mini episodes of it. I fear that I will contract with Alzheimer's when I grow older. Although somewhere in my mind, I want it to happen. Because when it does, I am no longer conscious of what I am doing- I will forget everything I have done 3 seconds ago. I will never ever remember all those awkward moments I had or have and every single time I decides to forget, I treat people like I meet them for the first time!

  This is a skill that I lack in my entire life, I lack the ability to make up and pretend that things never happen. You all know that I watch many dramas and I usually get all the stuff except for when people make up. Even when they do horrible things to each other, one of them will say sorry and the other will accept and whatever happened became non-existent- they became good friends again. I can never do this. Its not me. Once things become our, I will always still taste a tinge of it no matter how much sugar coating is done! Its just like one of the analogies I made when I was in secondary school. You can never mend a broken vase. You can try all you want, its never the same again. The only way to have a perfect vase is to get a NEW one. Somewhere in my Poly life, I thought that I could deal with taping the broken vase, I could deal with a super-glued broken vase because there is God. God will touch the vase and it will become brand new again. This is what I thought, but sadly, it never does happen. Not with me. I am just too socially awkward for anything to happen. I sometimes wonder if I really deserve a vase at all. Its so pretty to look at, so valuable, so brittle. I guess only time will tell and hopefully none of the vase I have now falls and break. I absolutely cannot handle another incident to take place. I will just have to proceed with caution and handle with care. I can do it. Every single thing that we do is a choice and I just have to make the right one. Carpe Diem, Seize the day.