Is it wrong that I outright deny someone's existence, that I refused to talk about that someone even though I want to be remembered by that same someone? Does it even make sense? I am doing so many stupid things and it is probably only me entertaining myself I guess. I am just lying to myself. Yet there is still this part of me that wants something. I do not know what I yearn for. Right now my current theory is that I am a sticky person and what I am yearning for is to stick to someone. I want to have a bestie. In other words, I want to be a parasite. This is because I am someone who sucks ALL the energy away from the unlucky person I latched myself to. I make life miserable for those who become my best friends.
It always happens. Time have revealed this known fact to many people who are around me. I cannot let this bother me though, I have to get out of this deep hole that I dug myself. I have learnt many things through the hard way and I cannot let myself be taught the hard way again. I have to know my limits and position in the eyes of people I am surrounded with and act accordingly. I will not overstep my boundaries, yet alone invade into people's private bubble. This is what I am going to aim for; this is what I need to do.
On a side note, this LG is coming along better already! I am starting to feel more close to my LG members as a whole and I look forward to even more fun times with them in time to come. I wonder what they think about the LG now. Are they happy about the change? Also, I am so surprised that this is the first time our LG actually have a group card for a fellow LG mate! It is so surprising because I always thought that it is done on everyone's birthday! Anyway, want to take a guess who made the card? Me! This is also my first time making a group card in general! Usually I make those small ones so that I can write it for myself only. Alright, that's all for now! I need to sleep for I have work tomorrow! See you!
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