Basically after that incident, what I did was that I complaint to people around me, telling them what I did, how I felt, and what should I have done. Some praised me, telling me that I did something gutsy, some told me that it is life and I should learn how to adapt to the outside world and some just pitied me. I have got various responses and I wonder to myself, what should I have done? What is the Christiany way to handle this situation?
As a person, I have never expected this kind of situation to me, yet alone a christian. From young, I have always love my teachers, and though I have never done their homework and studied for tests/exams at all, I still scored pretty well- more than average in class- and I am so proud of it. Going towards the end of my secondary school life, I have started to do homework because of the strict yet caring teachers I have around me, and I felt that I should do something to repay them! (though i still didnt study for tests and exams, not even Olvl until the very last day!)
Everything went haywired when I came into this course in Poly. I was still the goody goody boy in Year 1 Sem 1, choosing to sit right in front of class and being as attentive as ever. Look at me now, whenever I have the chance, I would prefer to sit at the back of the class and look at my phone, phone seems so much interesting when the teachers are around. I am not sure how my years in poly escalated to this, but I am pretty sure its because the teachers here likes to think that I am a student with bad attitude. They like to pull me out to do "pet talks", which I found it appalling. Which I also find it disgusting because the aura they give me feels more like they have to do it, its their job and what's more is that I know they couldnt care less.
Another one of them just loves to treat me like an army recruit, only know how to enforce rules upon me and make me feel like the shittiest person on life. Once, he even tried to threaten me about cutting away my bond so as to "motivate" me to do better. Guess what, it didnt motivate me at all, instead I just feel like doing it a lot worst and show them what it truly means to be the person with the bad attitude! I didnt do it in the end of course, I practically just ignored him.
I really hate how they work things out here in this stupid course. They only know how to talk bad about people, but have anyone actually seen them praising anyone? What's more is that they are not even there to see the "bad" things I do, all they rely on is some sort of stupid news by someone else and they think that it is the worst thing on earth to commit: sin. So what do they do next after hearing the news? They lash it all out to me and make themselves feel better. As if they did something in my life.
I still dont know what to expect from my current situation, but I hope that all ends well. I need to stop crying( SERIOUSLY) and face what's going to happen in my remaining months in this stupid course.
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