Conflict.

  Yet another conflict occurred today. Sometimes I am really tired of conflicting with people over and over again. I almost felt like giving up, just let it go and ignore forever. Its so frustrating that I almost felt like crying over it today. I dont even know how it happened, I dont think anyone is to be blamed at all. All I know now that it is tiring to keep relationship like this going and if it goes on, I dont think I will want to try anymore.

  Its also been a long while since I last talked to my secondary school friends. They never seem to contact me anymore, not even when I take the initiative. Am I really that bad as a person to be with? I dont even know what happened, but I dont seem to be a part of their lives anymore. It is so sad, for it used to be us against the world, now it is just yours and mine. Our paths doesnt seem to intersect anymore. Is it really how our 5 years of friendship with end? 


  I think in the end, its really just me. But do I really have to change my ways to suit someone else needs? I dont want to be fake with myself because I know that it will be even more tiring at the end of the day. Yet at the same time, I cant seem to find someone who I can be truthful with without getting some unpleasant...


   One day, I will find someone who will be able to understand and accept me fully, and then I will be at ease. No more troubles, no more worries, just simply sharing life and standing by me in my up and downs and I will do the same for that person. Just like soul mates, and that will be enough for me. Just one is enough, I dont need so many. God, can you grant me that little wish?