Weak will me.

I am such a weak person, going and acting solely base on my emotions. This really sucks when I am going through the mundane and dry season! God touched me again today during service and I found my strength to continue this path with him.

The thing here is this, why do I need God to touch me every time when this happens? Why must it stay at this level? I realized that I give in to temptations really easily. One super strong foothold in my life is food. I can never fast for a whole day. I always feel like eating. I am a glutton.

Sometimes I wonder if God will one day just stop trying to soften my quick-setting heart. "As long as I repent." This is what I tell myself and over time, this has became an excuse for me to sin, as long as I repent God will forgive me. Have I really repented? I am just going with my carnal nature and want the easy way out.

I need a change to come, real soon.

Anyway, something strange happened today. Some church member asked me about pink dot event and jokingly said that he is gay. I am trying hard not to think about it but it does sound fishy right? Don't know. My instincts seem to be wrong nowadays! Oh well! Until next time I guess! :D