Neglected

Out of my sudden curiosity, I went to read someone's blog and I realized that not only am I left out physically. I am left out spiritually too. Well, I never really had a spiritual guider, perhaps when I am a new believer? Then as things go haywire in my life, I found less and less help. I don't know, even in my ministry now, there's no one to talk to. I have not yet being appointed a Shepard yet, perhaps. never will because having one is not an entitlement but a privilege. I never really have privilege in much things in my life anyway(except for God).

I always find myself engaged and learning more spiritual stuff going to other's church than my own. Have I really made the right choice to stay here? I have been working myself so much that I have no breaks in a week and what I do everyday is super tiring. I don't even know why I make this point.

Anyway, today is the start of my fast. Jiayou okay? I am already starting to feel hungry already. Lol.