Food for thoughts.

  Good food, no matter how good, always tastes bland when you have no one to enjoy it with. I, for one, is not a fan of bland food. Therefore, I decided not to attend that retreat today for volunteers for the camp. Honestly, other than not having people to enjoy the food with, I also felt that I did not contribute much to the camp, and the only thing I contributed, it didnt even sound nice in the end. So I dont deserve that retreat AND there's no one for me to expect when I go over there. I have no one there. That's a really saddening thought, because I know that I love BBQs( especially my hotdogs) but it amounts to nothing when there is no one who I know there and enjoy it with. Really. When you have that joy and you have no one to share it with, there's no joy anymore. I need to find my person to share that very joy with and I need to find it fast. If not I will be alone in my life, I guess.

  As usual I feel like writing some stupid emo things again, but I am going to control myself now. Bye.