Camouflage?

I just love how my mind responds to my surroundings and make me adapt to them naturally. There are many instances in my life when it proved to be real dope and I feel awesome.

Like for example, when I went to Kampar for a mission trip, in that few days of interacting with the malaysians, I was able to pick up their accent and speak to them in that accent without realizing that I did it! Or the time when I had a choir camp and more than half of them were Malaysians. I spoke like one on the last day of the camp! Amazing right? However, all these accents that I have learnt in that short period of time disappear when I stop interacting with them.

However, these arent the reasons why I like this little ability of mine. When I get immersed in a english drama show, like Grey's Anatomy, Suits, Big Bang Theory, I am influenced by the way they act and talk. It feels awesome, it makes me want to be I their life! I don't mind being a doctor, a lawyer or even a lame ass scientist because they seem to have a super fun life!

The way I speak, the way I type improves also and I feel damn smart. There were times when I am able to imitate different accents from people for the show and I love it! Especially black people. How can you not love how they speak? So much attitude, so much confidence. Let me radiate that because I want that.

Today I was almost in the danger zone of not going to church. No, it's not the people, no its not that I am emo. Its just that on a lazy Saturday afternoon it is the BEST time for sleeping. You guys might not get t, but to an insomniac like me, it's heaven. The only time I fell into this trap was last year and I didn't attend church. I am not sure if it caused any ruckus, but I doubt so. If I can be gone for 3 months and only a few people cares, 1 week is nothing.

I need to discipline myself more from now onwards. I will not allow myself to fall for any of this traps! It's time to cultivate myself as a responsible person and be responsible for my actions.

Just a side note, I super love Amy! I think my most favorite song from her now is "take the box"! It speaks of her feelings and you can see the emotional conflicts that she had which, I also had/having. Just that I don't agree to some gender-related things, else everything is spot on.

I wonder what will I do with my lg today? Hope it's something fun and maybe have more manly talk and make me more manly? I am super tight on budget this month, hopefully I can pull through!

My hell week also begins the week after next and I really hope that I can pull through that. Because I won't be able to take it if I fail. I don't want to fail. I have failed in many aspects of my life, I am not going to fail in this one too.

Jiayou Kay? :D