Well...

I am suppose to meet Aedy tomorrow to go to the church camp, but after a bit of consideration and some chatting with WH, I decided to fly aeroplane to her. I feel like a bastard now, because she's probably asleep, thinking about meeting me tomorrow morning and the first thing she reads is, sorry, I am not meeting you anymore.

I think what others said about me to Aedy is still affecting me. So I just have to be nice and not cling her to myself( or at least that's what they claim). Anyway I think that it is a good time for her to socialize a bit more with the group cause she will still be there for a year! Me? I am already escaping so don't have to worry about me!


There are some things when you hear, you have no idea how to react. As it concerns on how people look at you. I realized that even if I never request for a different lg from WH, the other leader will still change. What is that suppose to mean? Anyway, I don't want to care anymore as I think that it is somewhat over already. There's nothing else I can do and nothing's coming either. So yes. 忘了吧!

Oh yes, I can't seem to get rid of "Feeling Good" from my mind! It is so jazzy and has so much attitude! It is definitely my kind of song and it's so sad that I can't perform it! One dream that I always have is to sing a big song and get standing ovation from people around me and this feels like that kind of song! AHHHH!! Now I can't sleep! :/