Attachment

  So I read through again and again what I typed just now on my previous post and I realized that it makes no sense. Somehow along the paragraph I lost myself. I guess that's how I sound like when I am emotional but that's okay, its not meant for anyone to realize unless you know me.

  Life have been a bitch to me recently, when you know there's a supervisor who loves to make your day horrible. It was bad enough that I was suffering migraine for more than 5hours in the afternoon and she just had to make me climb the whole primary school when we were working for the whole day non stop. I really wonder why must she treat me like that, even my colleagues can tell how she bullies me. Usually when we are working there, we degown and gown up at most 5 times a day, but just on monday itself, I had to gown and degown more than 20times( defintely). Just the action alone is tiring already and she loves to make me go on the wild goose chase. Am I that detestable eye-sore to her that she have to deal with me like that?

  Here I think that I want to be a good student that the supervisors/teachers like, but turns out that at the end of the semester, I am one of the bad students that requires all the attention. That if I do anything right, I am just lucky and if I do anything wrong, I must get scolded and punished badly, even if it's just a mistake. A mistake that everyone else makes in this course. Worst still, I am always getting the blame for things that I didnt even do, things that I am not in charge of, why must it be so? If there is anything to take responsibility for, I also have to take it, why must I be treated as such? I dont get it, and the only thing that I can come up with is that she just hates me. Perhaps, she's just bored and wants to bully someone and I am the someone who is nice enough to get bullied and not retaliate.

  I was so exhausted by the end of the day that I had to sleep the whole of yesterday night so that I have enough energy to work today! it is so obvious how mean she was with me when we had another supervisor today to compare. The one we had today is nice, and nobody had to gown and degown more than 5times, you know why? Cause there's really no need to because we have all the resources around us to help us achieve our goal. Just that the supervisor on monday love to make my life miserable. Maybe she is just going through the post menstrual cycle, I have to understand her. Sorry ma'am.

  Other than that, it seems fine and I am coming to the end of my year 3 life! Just need to tahan more and half of my problems are going to be over and the next chapter of my life starts. Hopefully it will be a fun and enriching one.