Hurt by another lecturer

  Honestly, how many lecturers intend to make me feel hurt in this stupid course?! Why do people have to be so negative and strict about things?

  Anyway, what happened was that, I did two E&D cases today in the afternoon. When it was at the first one, this lecturer corrected me on some stuff, which I find it perfectly fine and I told myself that I would do better on the next time round. So, the next time finally came, and I did everything right now except for one thing( which I SERIOUSLY find that is NOT of any VALUE), because it doesnt even help me in my treatment/diagnosing/patient comfort at all. Just because of that tiny puny stupid mistake she marked me down, as low as the first attempt.

  Which I find it unfair at all, why mark me as low as the first attempt for that simple mistake? I asked her why and she gave me a lame reason. Seriously damn lame. Because what I did not do is to do a "quick-version" of probing when actually I did the "full-version" of probing already. So there's really no significance in "quick-version" of probing at all, I can just see see from the "full-version" and fill the "quick version" up. But all I need is just to see the "full-version". So the STUPID reason that she gave me was, "What happens if the "full-version" got destroyed and you lost your data?". IT DOESNT MATTER, BECAUSE IF THE "FULL-VERSION" GOT DESTROYED THEN THE "QUICK VERSION" IS GONNA GET DESTROYED TOO BECAUSE THEY ARE ATTACHED ON THE SAME PIECE OF PAPER. Its really dumb, and I had nothing to say.

  But I was really hurt when I got the same results, so my efforts were all for nothing? Is that all she saw, that I made this mistake and everything else doesnt matter? Then when I was feeling emotional and was about to cry, she just told me to not be grouchy. Are you seriously telling me to not feel what I feel when I am feeling it? Its like asking a mother in labor to not feel pain at all! Can you do that? Then she still tell me things and expect me to say yes, I was already on the verge of crying already, and I was trying sooo hard to keep it in and I know that if I say something, I WILL DEFINATELY cry, so I just nodded my head. And all she say in her eyes were, "Whatever, he is not listening."

  OKAY, SHIT HER. I lost another respect for another lecturer already, but I am gonna make an effort to explain to her tomorrow in the morning and hope that it goes smoothly. Haiya, why must this kind of things happen to me?

  Anyway, I had a nice talk with Sheldon today, and I just hope that we have this kind of sessions more. Hehe.