What happened now is that I sent a text message to him, telling him how sorry I was for making him cry and that I will step out of his life. Though I know this is not really what I want in my heart, I think that it might be best for both of us. 4conflicts, so many of them in a few months, each time so tiring, so taxing to try and patch all up. I just don't want to get more dramatic the next time. I don't want people to feel Hurt because of me!
I didn't expect him to cry at all, and I never intend it to be the way it is now. Everything is so complicated so arghhhh! Whatever it is, I cant seem to harden my heart against him and in the end, I chose to initiate once again.
Maybe my choice might made me look like a coward, choosing the easy way out. But it really hurt me to type out those words okay...I cried and I just cant seem to control it( as usual). I know that somewhere deep inside me, I just want him to say that he dont want to give up on us and I would just continue this on...
Until it happens, I am just going to step out of his life like how it is suppose to be!
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