Okayy...

I was just thinking about what will happen in the coming services, what will I do. I will most probably cry very badly in one service because I am finally able to cast all my burdens towards god or will it be because I am too burdened? Then, I would ask someone beside me for a hug so that I can get comforted. Just at this thought, I teared two big drops and had to wiped away quickly before it reaches my mouth area. And this happened in a mrt! Poh Heng ah Poh Heng....

Anyway, I am finally able to dream after such a long period of time! In this dream, he was telling me that he wanted this friendship to go on and I could feel that I was on the verge of agreeing before I woke up. I guess this is what people say by wishful thinking.

Poh Heng, stop thinking about the impossible! It's been a while since we talked and it proves a lot to you le. So just stop thinking and enjoy as much of life that you are left with. Okay?

Then again, maybe I should really leave to another church permanently, since he told me before that he wouldn't mind if I left church for this kind of reason. Then why do I stay in thr church for? Anyway today's visit to my friend's church will help me with my decision bah! Jiayou Poh Heng, stay happy!!!!!!!