Its mission time.

  Its time for a mission. A mission to venture somewhere outside of Hope Church Singapore. It is because of this, that I sacrificed so many things in my life. Glee, Choir, outside Choir, my course and even Secondary school(?). Now, what I am left with, is just church people and church people are giving me shit.

  I have gotten too engrossed in church life that I forgot about my life before church. Even though I remembered that it was a life where I sort of have no life. It was a life that I enjoyed. This is probably due to the fact that I hadnt tasted love yet at that point of time. It is definately a nice feeling to have, but because you love, you get hurt too. After feeling a love that is so strong, anything less just does not satisfy me anymore and I need to get over the fact. Whether if its wine, whiskey or just plain water, I just have to drink it all.

  Where should I go? I think that if my friends were to ask me out again on a saturday, I wouldnt hesitate to say yes anymore. YES, I need to get out of church life once in awhile! Church feels like a cage nowadays and its a horrible feeling! It shouldnt feel this way, and I dont know how to change it!

  Should I go back to Glee? I will be able to meet so many people! Though it will be awkward for me the first few times, I am sure that it will be worth it! So many dynamic people surrounding me, so why not?

  I can even go back to my outside choir! Honestly, before I left them, I really love how they see one another as a family! So close, and they share life together so much! I was really jealous cause I dont even see that in church at that point of time!

  Maybe, I can even stay at home and just ignore the world la! No harm staying home right? Oh well...