More relationship issues

  Really, I dont think its anyone's fault that things happened this way. We are just being real to our own emotions and doing what we think its right. I dont know how we got to this awkward stage and sometimes, I feel tired just thinking about it. I guess my EQ level just aint high enough to take this relationship on comfortably. You seemed to have a lot more relationship issues on hand too, and I dont want you to be bothered so much on ours, because it is not so worth it. You have many more friends who you knew longer, and are so much closer with who needs you in their lives too. You have to stand strong for them!

   Sometimes, I feel that what we are, are just texting buddies. We hardly spent time together in real life, and once again, its not our fault. We are both very easily influenced by our emotions and life is not easy on us too. We are always so tired after service and the after-service fellowship time doesnt seem to be so attractive to me anymore.

   What I will be doing soon, is that I am choosing to escape momentarily. Its been a while since I go church with the pure intent to seek god. I would always have this troubled feeling as to how to act, and trying to think of ways to remove the awkwardness. I realized that in the end, everything suddenly seems so complicated, and I feel so helpless.

  Anyway, I think that this period of time is good for us also. It will definately allow us some time to cool down and think through about us. So that when we face this relationship again, we will be more prepared and stronger. This time is also good for you cause you will have more time to deal with your own situation.


  Most probably, I will be away from church for about a few weeks. My batch's vice president of choir, Ruth, have been bringing over the current president of choir to church for the past two weeks. Though he have not accepted Christ yet, I know that he is getting influenced and receptive to the gospel judging from Ruth's description. I want to be there at her church to support the both of them. One is to spread the gospel of Jesus, giving him my testimony. Another reason, is to just plainly spending time with her. Its been awhile since we talked and meet up, the last time was the 2nd last time I visited choir? And it is a long long time ago. Lastly, I just want to be a part of a reason for someone to cross the line of faith. I never had anyone who I know accepting Jesus into their life, and I just want to witness this moment myself.