Queen of the Night.

Oh goodie, people like them inspires me to sing countertenor!

Spem in alium

This song has 40 parts! Awesomeness

Ombra Mai Fu

This is a must listen! It's really nice and soothing, one of my favourite songs! ANd the singer is a HE!

Singapore Poly's experience!

I definiately did not regret signing up to go for this SP's experience! I had lots of fun there, especially when experiencing first-hand the course(physcology and drama) I was attracted to! We did quite a number of activities; started out with self-introduction, then the whoosh, boink, zap, googlicious game, wave wave splash(or was it something else) and lastly, a 'lesson' on physcology where we targeted social norms who loves to copy- It involves being told a non-fiction situation, and were were to conclude if the person is happy or not, and we have to display everything( life of the person) in our acting, in our freeze-frame. Freeze frame is basically like a photo, we would be stucked in our situation and only moved and talked only when we were tapped.

Of course, I did well in all the games- I won the wave wave splash game and felt that I acted well on the last one. It was fun, especially when you were grouped with a bunch of, dare I say, crazy girls who were really out-going, and I went crazy with all of them( or so someone says), screaming and laughing while dicussing on how we were to act.

We also went for this concert. I wasn't keen with the idea of attending some concert of a person I do not know of, but I later changed my mind when it happened. The DJ had a great sense of humour, unlike the other MCees who only gave cold jokes. He made me laugh and scream all the way, with the performances, untill this duo who rap took the stage- the thinner one wasn't good, halting my mood from getting any higher and instead, dropped. Of course, that was just a minor part of the show, so I guess it was okay. I gradually got backed the feeling once more after..

We went to have dinner afterwards, and that's all.

Choir

For some reason, I suddenly have this urge to write about this, not sure why though, it is now nearing midnight. Seriously, I have given some thoughts about this, whether to go for the last two practices during june holidays as required, or to just go to pratices when I had the time. If I let my body take over my mind, it will definitely choose the latter. But there's one little problem I have here: How exactly do I define if I had the time or not?

O'lvls are nearing, that's for sure. How much time do I exactly have left? Before we sang for our SYF, I told myself, that I would spend all my time on choir, that I would raise our standard to the next level and after that, I let go. That's the way in life, isn't it? Like what one of my friend says, this choir I have here, is merely a part of my secondary school life, my life doesn't just end here; I will have to report to another school, join new clubs. make new friends. And in order to acheive this, I have to let go of this burden I have here, and carry another burden.

And now what? The current members are either over relying on the graduating seniors or having second thoughts on joining this CCA, that the whole choir collapses. To be honest, I have foreseen this soon-to-be tradegy already, I have noticed the way the choir sang when one or two good ones are missing, the volume a whole bunch made that equals to one, and the efforts put into singing. I have already voiced my thoughts regarding this issues long before the SYF. It was somehow neglected, I suppose. The others somehow thought that the choir could survive just because we took in alot of male singers this year; it is not entirely about the numbers, it's more of the passion, the willingness to work.

It's not that I don't want to sing in zhenghua choir anymore, it is just that, that one exam that determines my future is just within a few months! I know I did not do well for the chinese paper, which just adds up to the why-I-shouldn't-go-choir list. Doesn't it? I have already serviced myself selflessly the moment I stepped into choir- planning stuffs, making it happen.. And as a result, my results dropped, my mid-year was a disaster. L1R5- 28; Where can I exactly go? And I thought I could apply for direct admission with my results....

Luigi has explained the other side of the story to me, that Mr.Chen wanted to present the very same silver choir on stage to the others, to show that what we sang isn't a fluke, choir isn't just some sing-song CCA and that we are good. I know his intentions, I understand, I support his decisions, for I know he is wise. That's why I suppose I will go for those practices as per required.

For the remaining ones, allow me to be selfish for once, I will only go when I am statisfied with my progress. This june holiday, I suppose, is one of the most important months of my school life. I will make sure that I do not regret, that I do not live in agony just because I helped my CCA to get that short amount of glory. I mean, think about it, the secondary 4s come back and assisted the choir, then? Attract new members? Make people gape in awe? And after that, what? The secondary 4's leave, and everything collapses AGAIN. And what's the price the sec 4s gave?

I may sound to be over exaggerating now, but what can I say? Every single minute is precious, and not to forget, the activity we are doing requires minutes after minutes everyday. It may sound little, but what if we sum all the little minutes here and there?

The juniors might feel that I am some jerk now, thinking that I am bullshitting and have just lost passion in singing. That I do not blame you, I used to think the same too, "if the seniors really liked choir, they should have gone at every opportunity". Now that I am in their shoes, am the senior, I am finally able to comprehend their situation; I felt the steadily growing tension, be it in the classroom, across the level, or even between schools the competition is fierce; and therefore I should not diverge my attention, I could not afford to be. I am not asking sympathies, just understanding would do. For I know, you guys will know it in due amount of time.....

O'lvl chinese

Everything, was just not what I have expected. The moment I read the questions in paper 1, I was filled with joy; we had studied for the correct sub-topics! Jackpot! Not only that, letter writing was a piece of cake too, I was able to analyze the question and write out all the eight points for content, I was confident of myself, confident to acheive an A. I went to look for Ms Soh and we celebrated, everything, everything was within my grasp when it happened...

Paper 2 officially ended, and Ms Soh called for a class meeting. Telling us that upon further inspection of the question, she found out that if we write the composition the usual way we did, we are definitely out of point. That shot me HARD. Needless to say, I was one of the idiots who stupidly just write the composition without even knowing the what they are looking for. And I thought all my efforts were worth it, I celebrated with myself, flashing smiles to everyone, hoping them to get good grades "too".

Now? Everything is turning upside down, seriously, I don't feel like studying chinese anymore, I guess I will just have to rely on the other subjects. Definitely have to work doubly the hard, though I am not sure if it is all worth it or not....I AM a dimwit

To say that I was shocked was definitely under-rated. Never in my whole life would I expect myself to score a distinction in english! And I thought that I would not do good at all; I had neither complete my essay and letter writing in paper 1 and had written out of point(or so the examiner comments; I kind of argee too though). Yet I still scored pretty average for each papers: 18marks.

That's not it. I had scored 40/50 for my paper 2! I also screamed out in happiness, to say the truth. I still remember vividly that very day I received my paper 2 last year. "Poh Heng, 17 and a half". I was crestfallen then, but now, a change in emotion 180 degrees.

I am still able distinctly the face my friend, Sean, gave when we finally got hold of our results. He did great in paper 1, I have to admit, but his paper 2, I have to say, is below average(no offense). It is the main thing that pulled him down, quite sad though, he could have topped and won.

However, I think it is not time to be happy yet, in terms of ranking, I dropped. Marks, I improved. Which is actually good though it proves that others are moving at a faster pace. I do that hope my standards would not drop over time, or I will suicide. A moment of glory cannot overtake the feeling of embarassment afterwards...especially when your high up and the next minute, falling into oblivion.

P.S. I kind of feel that the paper is giving out the wrong signals, false hope.