To say that I was shocked was definitely under-rated. Never in my whole life would I expect myself to score a distinction in english! And I thought that I would not do good at all; I had neither complete my essay and letter writing in paper 1 and had written out of point(or so the examiner comments; I kind of argee too though). Yet I still scored pretty average for each papers: 18marks.

That's not it. I had scored 40/50 for my paper 2! I also screamed out in happiness, to say the truth. I still remember vividly that very day I received my paper 2 last year. "Poh Heng, 17 and a half". I was crestfallen then, but now, a change in emotion 180 degrees.

I am still able distinctly the face my friend, Sean, gave when we finally got hold of our results. He did great in paper 1, I have to admit, but his paper 2, I have to say, is below average(no offense). It is the main thing that pulled him down, quite sad though, he could have topped and won.

However, I think it is not time to be happy yet, in terms of ranking, I dropped. Marks, I improved. Which is actually good though it proves that others are moving at a faster pace. I do that hope my standards would not drop over time, or I will suicide. A moment of glory cannot overtake the feeling of embarassment afterwards...especially when your high up and the next minute, falling into oblivion.

P.S. I kind of feel that the paper is giving out the wrong signals, false hope.