Fears

  So out of nowhere, my uncle's gf/wife( I still dont know if they are married) passed away yesterday. I attended the funeral service and all seems very surreal to me. She is still young, like about 40~50 years old and she pass away due to diabetes. I did not think much of it then, just that I have to be there to support my uncle and wish him best of luck. After I sat down with my family, I started to observe people who came for the funeral service. Half of them are people who are like him, mute. I used to pity people like my uncle a lot, but I guess they dont need no pity. They seem simple and happy go lucky. It is quite nice to see those genuine expressions on peoples' faces for a change. Do I envy them? Maybe.

  On the way home, I started thinking about how fragile life is. Then I thought about my bestest friend in the world, Luigi. Since earlier this year, he has been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I am really afraid that the same thing might happen to him. That I have to attend his funeral service. I thought about it and I almost broke down. It is difficult having people you know and love being on the verge of death every single day. I dont know what to think. Maybe dying young isn't such a bad thing after all, so you wont have to see anyone else you love pass away.