It is two more weeks to POP, I should be enjoying myself now. But I am not. Too many things suddenly happened in a short period of time and I cant help to feel depressed. Lets take something that is of a minor detail to talk about first, a section mate on a Saturday messaged me, "I miss you, asshole." Perhaps I am over thinking this( hopefully I am) but it creeps the hell out of me. Honestly, you see this very same person for the past 4 months 6 days a week and on that one day when you dont see the person, you send this kind of text? Do you get what I am trying to say here or am I out of my mind?
Also, that person all of the sudden became exceptionally nice, like REALLY nice. Usually right after an activity( physical training), what people usually do is to go up to your bunk and go to your own locker and do whatever the hell you want. He came up and opened mine before I even stepped into the room. Then I had a case when I pulled my hamstring and I could not participate, out of the blue, he had the exact same problem. Even I know that he is lying from the offhanded way he told our platoon IC, almost as if, "Oh yea, I want to fall out too."
I could not take it and I was pissed. Like super pissed. I just avoided him for the rest of the week and it was tiring because we BASICALLY SLEEP IN THE SAME ROOM. So yes, that is one matter off my chest, hopefully I am just being dramatic and everything will go back to status quo soon.
Then, I received a phone call from my Brother saying that things happened in my family. Long story short, it is basically a story of a drunk drunk Mother( who is drunk on the daily basis) holding a knife trying to stab my oh-so-passive Dad who turned violent after this drunk drunk Mother physically abuse him until he could not tolerate it anymore. Then of course, the story did not just end here, this drunk drunk Mother decided to call the ambulance( which she failed apparently because she did not press the 'call' button) and ended up calling the police to call the ambulance over. Which ended up to be a very embarrassing situation for my brother who had worked with those people who came to our house. That is the story of my family. In case you did not notice, my sister is not in the picture because she had never came home since a few months ago and she's happily living her life without any family drama to deal with( which I worry for her and yet cant help but to envy her courage.)
Life is a mess for me and to add the matter worse. I can already feel a fever building up. My throat is getting sore no matter how much water I drink and my head is in a constant state of on the verge of bursting. That is life for me this week, and hopefully it does get better after some time.
Oh yes, one good thing to say before ending this blog post. I caught my eye candy eyeing me today. I do not know if it is coincidence or not. But, HIP HIP HOORAY!!!
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