Sian.

  Just a few days ago, I was on phone with some woman from hospital. It was regarding my appointment for check up and we talked for about 5 to 10 minutes. Everything was fine until when I was about to hang up the phone. "Thank you, Mdm"- These are the words she said to me before the call ended. To say that I was devastated would be an understatement. Even at my age( nearing 20), people still think that I am a girl over the phone? How can this be? I am really sad. No wonder I got this habit of speaking in a low voice over the phone with my friends; the entire thing resonates from the insecurities with being mistaken as a female when I am on the phone.

  There's another thing that is bothering me lately. There is this stupid idiotic doctor who refuses to deem me as fit and sign on the paper. This is really irritating because its over a condition that happened years ago and it has not affected me ever since. I do not know what he is thinking about and it frustrates me to no end. I even specifically make 2 trips down to the hospital just to get my papers sign and they were of no avail. Why does stupid doctors have the power to control my life with their signatures. If he doesnt sign it, it means that whatever I studied for the past 3 years are for nothing because I am not "fit" enough to do it. Stupid isnt it? Hopefully I didnt struggle for the entire 3 years and the heartwrenching supplementary for nothing.

  With all these negative things happening around me, I am thankful that I still have choir. Tomorrow is the accapella competition and hopefully our efforts for the past months have not been wasted. VE, we can do it! Even though I think I am suppose to feel old and act more mature in VE, I honestly think I am still childish when I am with them. As in, I do exert my power as a senior from time to time, but most of the time, I am having fun and being myself! That is what I like about choir! They are one of the most comfortable people I have ever been with!

  Honestly, I have no idea why I havent being updating this blog for quite a while now. I think it is just due to me being very lazy and no motivation to write. I love this blog and I love all you readers who are still willing to chase after a dead blog like mine. Maybe it would be nice if you all suggest things for me to talk about? I can try to share my thoughts here! Alright!