Still a criminal.

  I guess not only am I seen to have sabotaged Aedy's life, I am also seen as one who sabotaged another's person life. I was told that I pulled someone down today, stumbled them so hard and left them in a rubble of emotions. People moved on already, so why should I still bring that up? I dont know if its just me or what, but I need to move on too right? All I need were the answers to my questions, those questions aint that hard either. Of course, after all that, I was finally able to moved on and then I dragged someone down. Now, I am a criminal. People just side with him( then again, they were always on his side), so what about me? Everyone is fine when I was not able to move on. Of course its fine, cause whatever happens to me does not bother anyone. I am that unimportant. I just have to get used to that feeling.

  I was told that my personality and my mindset is wrong. I need to repent on that. However, I dont know what it is and people just dont want to tell me. Why do people not want to tell me things? I am so sick of people telling me to figure everything out by myself. Its always been like this. What I figured out is that I have to make it right, who is better to heal the wounds than the one inflicted it? Only the one who inflicted emotional wounds can make it right, because that will be what I want.

  I just realized that I am a very selfish person, everything is about me me and me. I have to make things right and the only way to make it right is to go for it myself. Its not about me anymore, nothing is about me and it cannot be about me. I need to stop thinking me and think more of others. They are more important than me. Alright, I need to go now. Aedy please dont murder me.