Bored.

  I spent my entire day today reading manga and playing games. It is the kind of life that I want when I am busy, but when you are actually experiencing it, you just want to get busy. Grass is always greener on the other side. I think that applies to many things in life. I shouldnt be wanting things that I dont have, instead I should look at what I have now and cherish them.

  Is it wrong or weird to say that I want to feel emo? I miss feeling emo. Nowadays I feel normal and contented and yet I feel that something is missing. What I am missing is feeling emo. I am so used to being emo that I miss being emo. That is really freaky. I tried to reason myself so many things why I shouldnt be, yet I yearn for it. The only conclusion that I can think of is that feeling emo occupies me. I cannot stand being too free. I need to think about something all the time.

  This is stupid. I need to get used to the feeling of being free and lazy. I want to be free. Just imagine with me, close your eyes. Imagine a pair of wings behind your back and you are flying in the sky. You are free to fly wherever you want. Doing this always make me smile, I can feel that adrenaline rush, that exhilaration that comes to me, it is all so real to me. The power of imagination, everyone can dream right? One day, I will have that adrenaline rush, that same exhilaration that I feel when I imagine myself flying in real life. Something will make me feel this way and I am sure of it! (Just not bungee jumping, I will scream my heart out from my mouth).