Time can really do wonderful things, though it might not completely eradicate whatever pain, sadness you feel. With time, the feelings gets dull. With time, you will learn how to handle and make do with what you have. As long as I dont regret what I have done, I guess its all right.
I will be flying overseas soon already and when I think of buying souveniers for people, I dont really have lots of people in mind. Somehow, I just wish that this would be a one way trip, going back to thailand and just leave behind whatever I have here, Life would be so much easier and I dont have to worry about so many things. Of course, there are some lovely people in my life that I cannot bear to part with! Namely, Aedy, Ruth, Luigi, Yali and Gladys! They are the people who have been there quite a bit in my life and are still here with me now! No matter how awkward or how "emotionless" I appear to be, they would always take the first step and approach me! This is really something that I appreciate from them!
There are some things I plan to do when I get there and I just got the weird idea of wanting to dye my hair! Since I have NEVER dye my hair before and I am going to shave my head soon anyway, why not try something out? This idea came to me when I went over to Aedy's house and drank her orange juice. She was dye-ing her hair and eureka! Of course, I am not going to make myself into a chao ah beng and dye my hair golden. What I have in mind is perhaps just red. Red is also my favorite color, so why not?
Now I am feeling so excited that I cant wait! Though this trip might not be a permanent one, it is still a great getaway from Singapore. Maybe I might get kidnapped by some really nice person and live a wonderful life when I am over there? Most probably, if it really happens, I would just hope that they will give me a quick and nice death. Then everything will be over. At least for me, and its quite easy to forget about my existence so I dont worry about people missing me. Alright I will just stop typing before it gets too emo. I will continue typing when I am in a better mood!
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