Before the camp, over the weeks where I have avoided the people from NYP I built up a wall in between me and them. This wall allowed me to ignore them and allowed me not to feel anything much for them. This very same wall crumbled down during this camp as I spent more time with God.
I was told that I have the softest heart that she has ever seen and if I continue to reinforce the walls that I had built then, I would turn to be inhumane. My efforts on the wall turn into nothing when God touched me. Why do I have such a soft heart? I cried so many times during the camp that I have lost count, I even cried when they showed the video about how other people are doing in other countries. I am just too soft.
Now, everything is coming back. The feelings, the whatever nots. I have to settle it down again. Don't think too much, just put it down and walk forward. You can do it!
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