It was a VERY one sided friendship afterall. I don't know if it's because I just woke up or what because I am not feeling anything now. I think I am suppose to feel something and somehow I am trying to "make" myself feel it, but it ain't happening.
It's over now- sorry it had never even started. He is not one of the best friends I have/had because it is suppose to be a mutual thing. Who calls someone your best friend when the person probably doesnt notice your existence all the time? So what was I really clinging on for in that relationship? There was nothing. Yet I held on so hard and tried to make it mean something. So hard that my fingertips bleed and it is going to leave a scar forever. No more Poh Heng, it's time to bury this and move on. You deserve better, okay? Let's be positive about my life. There are many should have, might have, couldn't have things in life, and it's tiring to live with regrets. So I am going to just focus on can have and will have. The tangible presence, the promises of God. :D
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