Anyway, this are the cards that I have been making. Some of them are half done and some are ready to be given out. Honestly, this cards are like babies to me and I feel reluctant to give them to others. Sometimes i wonder if they will even appreciate the cards that I made but I still make it anyway cause that's what I enjoy doing!
The next question: who should I give it to? Honestly, I made quite a bit of cards and there's only so little people that I can think of to give them. If it were to be me in the past, I wouldn't hesitate to write them for my LG and close friends that I had in church. Nowadays, I just dont seem close to anyone except for the holy woman and I wonder if I want to bridge the friendships that I have lost.
Well, I did try but however, I weren't invited to any of the events, so I guess I am kind of like out of the group already. Henceforth I shouldn't even have dinner with them after service right? Haha, now I feel like a bitter person who holds grudges. Thinking back, I was the one who rejected them when they asked me, HOWEVER, I did apologized when I came back and out of so many people who I rejected, only three from my lg messaged me and two of them probably did it out of obligations. I didn't really had any friends in church I guess. That very thought used to hurt me alot, because I practically invested ALL of my time in church, but I am used to it already. I rather real friends than fake ones. How many do I have, really?
Haha, so after so long I still have not decided on who should I write the card to. Most probably my besties from the different groups that I hanged out with. That definitely does not constitute the number of cards that I have now, but I am thinking that perhaps, I could just save it for future use! It would help me when I just feel like writing cards but not doing them!
Now I feel so much more energized as compared to when I started writing this blog. I wonder why... It's been a super long day today especially when it is the last day of clinics (Hopefully)! They just love to spam many patients on days like this, It was the same last year- on our last day of clinics before the holidays.
It's the oral viva tomorrow and I really hope that I can do well! Actually, I have to do well because it concerns my graduation. Let me tell you a secret: I haven't study yet. I am definitely one of the few individuals in the class who ain't motivated at all. Not that the course and the things that I am doing is boring or that it is not my cup of tea but the supervisors and the lecturers are super HUGE TURNOFFS! I really cannot stand them. Wishing that everything will be over soon and I will not have to see their faces as often again.
Okay I am reaching my stop already. Haha, I will write again next time! :D
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