CNY celebration at a chalet

It was really enjoyable, spending time with my relatives- makes me wonder how fun will it be to spend it with friends, friends that I am close and open too, of course! I am such an introvert when handling my family, doesn't matter if there's any nephew or niece that is like super cute, I won't even want to talk to them! Haha, I wonder why. A lot of things happened when I am at this chalet, one of them is me being constantly subjected to drinking alcohol! From beer, to wine I drank everything. Luckily I have a little experience in drinking, so I built up a little resistance in my body and didn't make a fool out of myself especially late at night when we play drinking game with mahjong!"

Anyway, I woke up super early at around 7:00am and nobody's awake so I left the chalet and sat here where I am now to enjoy this view! It's not exactly spectacular but you can hear the sounds of the birds constantly chirping and see many cyclists cycle past the road. There is really one thing you can do that comes naturally in this kind of setting, and that is to think about current situation in life.

I feel kind of stupid nowadays, been doing so many stupid things that now, I don't even know what to do to salvage the situation! The thing about me is that I always think with my heart and I have been trying to use my brain more recently but the heart still have a strong influence in my decision making process! So in a way, I am always in a constant struggle and it's making my life so difficult!

Oh well, in the end I decided not to hold any grudges anymore and yea. So sorry for not explaining anymore cause I really don't know what's going through my mind nowadays!