Wake up.

  There are some painful realities that I have to see face to face with. I want to accept it and move on, but I will still feel the the pangs of emotions whenever reality strikes me again. I seriously dont like it and it sucks when I feel this way. Why am I feeling this way? I want to get over it but I just cant. Sometimes, it makes me wonder if I am really purified because I have been this way since forever. I am still hoping that it would change, because if it doesnt, it just proves to me that God aint happening and what I know aint real anymore.