Current situation?

  Aiyah, its stupid. I wonder what ever make me feel and act this way? I am so childish and stupid, but this barrier subconciously rose up again from deep within me, and I just went back to my old lousy ways of handing situation. I guess I am just being stubborn? Or perhaps it just my pride. Then again, I do feel that I have the right to be angry, but the thing is, it aint understood by the other party. So I am just being petty.

  Anyway its obvious that something is wrong, but I dont want to be the one initiating again. It was always me, and nowadays, I dont feel the urge to initiate anymore. Perhaps, I got tired of it already? Or maybe I have just lost it. People like me, need to FEEL that there is something between the person and me before I consider the person close. And I dont feel it anymore. Perhaps its the time gap, or maybe I am just numb to it already. Whatever it is, I will just let it be...

  I still have this stupid habit of scanning through tweets just to find his and stalk his blog. NEED TO GET RID OF IT SOON. Its getting out of hand and I still dont know why I do it. Oh well...