This, can be said to be one of my most serious illness I ever had. This high fever that I was inflicted with, is untolerable. I am still plague with the idea of carrying it- it is so high that any surface I come in contact with, will turn hot in a few seconds. The effect is rather instantaneous: I could feel the heat from my body being transferred away! Yes. FEEL, not a pleasant feeling at all. What's more is that gushes of chilly waves will peridoally travel through my body. So it's either extreme hotness or coldness. The air-con in my room didn't help with the "warmth" I felt, if anything, it only made me uncomfortable.
In addition to the fever, coughing could be said as an obstacle too. The coughing sometimes get so serious that I could feel my stomach churning and I would vomit. My constantly abused voice, could be said to sound rugged now. Lucky that SYF is over, if not I am sure that I am not allowed to be on stage in my present health condition.
To be honest, it has been years since I last fell sick. I couldn't just suddenly be infected by such serious sickness right? Also, on tuesday, 18 teachers were said to be on MC. I wonder if there's any link between me, falling and the teachers too? What's the cause? Global warming? Okay, that sounded stupid. Still, I can't help but to think that there must be something that is going around. (sure, Mr Dectective)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
It was a tear-jerking news, really. Especially when you know that you are on the verge of getting a cop on the previous attempt and now "upgraded" to silver! All the effort we have put into the training have not been in waste and I hope, will continue it's way for eternity.
For choir members: I do hope that you guys wouldn't be complacent now and start slacking! I know you guys can do it! You too right? Jiayous and aim for gold for the next SYF! I have my faith in you!
I woke up quite early( about 3.00am) and occupied myself with the computer. Ah, the joy of technology. I mentioned this in my previous post, but I will just say this again: Choirs doesn't really sound good in the mornings( the voices haven't fully warmed up yet), that's why I woke up that early, so that my voice could be more prepared than the other. Although It is nothing for me, I mean, I do have this habit of waking up that early already, so yes, nothing much.
I still remember vividly the scene when I cried in the morning. I was just thinking through the possibility of singing in front of the school the National Anthem( Majulah Singapura), then came with the thoughts that it would be the last time that I will be singing with them as a whole. After that, came the "stepping-down-from-choir-after-SYF" thoughts. You know, all the sad stuffs, then I cried. I saw my extremely red eyes before I leave for school. Wonder why none of them took notice of them( have to thank the surroundings, I guess!).
Because I know it's the last time when I will officially sing with them, I got hold of my camera and started snapping random shots everywhere. Most of them were shy, so I only got a mob of black hair for a "face". What selfish people. However, that is not the worst thing it has happened to me, the horrible thing is that luigi caused me to drop my camera and it is spoilt now. Great, there goes my snapping streaks. We tried to do emergency treatments on the fallen camera. It did not recover, the impact was too great.
When we started doing our final practice in school, our instructor, Mr. Chen, made the altos run around the school one time- they sounded sluggish. Mr Lim was there when our instructor shouted them to move, it was so embarassing, letting him witness a scene like that. After the altos were back, we performed for Mr.Lim and received good comments on our singing- saying that there is a distinct difference between 2 years ago and now. I was on cloud nine then.
So, I was on a bus when I heard this great news: That our sounds were heard when we sang Majulah Singapura and You Raise Me Up, and was described as an angelic voice. The one that pierced through the walls of the school.
Note: We canceled our plans on singing infront of the school due to the lack of time to prepare. How disappointing.
I am still able to recall the feeling when I sang on stage. It was, nerve-wrecking. Knowing that we only have 6 baritones( comparing to others, I can safely say that we have the least amount of guys), we might just be too soft. I am still able to feel myself in the middle of the stage( I was suppose to stand in the middle), looking up at the judges( all the half-bald white hair uncles and aunties...opps), and waiting for our singing to be assessed with. Honestly, I was really terrified then: What if we are not good enough? But no, we did good enough to get a silver! And then, unknowningly, we finished our three songs. And I was like, "that's all?!?, after so many days of training and practicing, all we did only sums up to that few minutes?!?". It was basically the sense of empty-ness, like what Mdm ho had said. The other choirs after us were quite average except for one: they had done it flawlessly well. I was impressed, the others too, I believe. Kasa Kasa( claps) and "O-leh-WARH", doonstu.
We were chased out from VCH and immediately travelled back to school. Took some group photos and changed back into the normal wear( this is when my camera fell). Had lots of fun. We were told that we could stay back to receive our results at 6pm. Having the assurance we have more than enough time to get back to school, me and my group of friends when out to eat. When we came back, we had nothing to do, so we started making our own songs. It sounded awesome, at least, to my ears. And I still love the part where I sing "Siiiil..VER~~". Yes we were singing silver in hopes of it becoming true. Just to let you guys know, I sang the highest note in our composed songs, and when I attempted to go higher, the others covered their ears( It was too powerful and sharp for them, and of course, I was using my falsetto). We also have our own mixed versions of the pieces we sang in our SYF, it was fun, to sing in this relaxed form.
I unintentionally scared my jie(kimberly) when I went into the room to search for my water bottle. They were sharing ghost stories then, and the room was pitched dark. I switched on my torchlight and placed it under my chin, letting it shoot upwards. It creates the "I-have-the-hollow-face" effect which looks as if you have no sockets and stuff. And a scream came towards my direction( My jie's), she asked me not to do that- I guess she was too scared then, I meant, she went out to cry one time when she was unable to take it.
We went down near blue room and waited for the news. When Mdm Ho took the call, it seems like she took ages before telling us the news. She tricked us by getting into this posture that "Uh-oh, this is not to be expected( in a bad way)" and walked towards us "dragging" her feets. "Choir..." she said, and everyone went silent. There was a deafening silent when she came again.."We've got COP..". And a second later,"no la, we've GOT SILVER!!" She exclaimed as we all cheered with our entire being. I was stunned then, still not able to take the fact that we got silver, so I went into this mode of "we get silver, we get silver, we g...". And then it gets happier and happier when I suddenly let out tears of joy from the floodgates. It was really embarassing, crying like that in front of friends, at least I am not the only one- quite a number cried. We hanged out for dinner awhile later and went home straight after that. This could be said, as the best day of my life!
P.S. :NO photos thanks to YOU-KNOW-WHO
P.S.2 : I told you that it would be long
For choir members: I do hope that you guys wouldn't be complacent now and start slacking! I know you guys can do it! You too right? Jiayous and aim for gold for the next SYF! I have my faith in you!
I woke up quite early( about 3.00am) and occupied myself with the computer. Ah, the joy of technology. I mentioned this in my previous post, but I will just say this again: Choirs doesn't really sound good in the mornings( the voices haven't fully warmed up yet), that's why I woke up that early, so that my voice could be more prepared than the other. Although It is nothing for me, I mean, I do have this habit of waking up that early already, so yes, nothing much.
I still remember vividly the scene when I cried in the morning. I was just thinking through the possibility of singing in front of the school the National Anthem( Majulah Singapura), then came with the thoughts that it would be the last time that I will be singing with them as a whole. After that, came the "stepping-down-from-choir-after-SYF" thoughts. You know, all the sad stuffs, then I cried. I saw my extremely red eyes before I leave for school. Wonder why none of them took notice of them( have to thank the surroundings, I guess!).
Because I know it's the last time when I will officially sing with them, I got hold of my camera and started snapping random shots everywhere. Most of them were shy, so I only got a mob of black hair for a "face". What selfish people. However, that is not the worst thing it has happened to me, the horrible thing is that luigi caused me to drop my camera and it is spoilt now. Great, there goes my snapping streaks. We tried to do emergency treatments on the fallen camera. It did not recover, the impact was too great.
When we started doing our final practice in school, our instructor, Mr. Chen, made the altos run around the school one time- they sounded sluggish. Mr Lim was there when our instructor shouted them to move, it was so embarassing, letting him witness a scene like that. After the altos were back, we performed for Mr.Lim and received good comments on our singing- saying that there is a distinct difference between 2 years ago and now. I was on cloud nine then.
So, I was on a bus when I heard this great news: That our sounds were heard when we sang Majulah Singapura and You Raise Me Up, and was described as an angelic voice. The one that pierced through the walls of the school.
Note: We canceled our plans on singing infront of the school due to the lack of time to prepare. How disappointing.
I am still able to recall the feeling when I sang on stage. It was, nerve-wrecking. Knowing that we only have 6 baritones( comparing to others, I can safely say that we have the least amount of guys), we might just be too soft. I am still able to feel myself in the middle of the stage( I was suppose to stand in the middle), looking up at the judges( all the half-bald white hair uncles and aunties...opps), and waiting for our singing to be assessed with. Honestly, I was really terrified then: What if we are not good enough? But no, we did good enough to get a silver! And then, unknowningly, we finished our three songs. And I was like, "that's all?!?, after so many days of training and practicing, all we did only sums up to that few minutes?!?". It was basically the sense of empty-ness, like what Mdm ho had said. The other choirs after us were quite average except for one: they had done it flawlessly well. I was impressed, the others too, I believe. Kasa Kasa( claps) and "O-leh-WARH", doonstu.
We were chased out from VCH and immediately travelled back to school. Took some group photos and changed back into the normal wear( this is when my camera fell). Had lots of fun. We were told that we could stay back to receive our results at 6pm. Having the assurance we have more than enough time to get back to school, me and my group of friends when out to eat. When we came back, we had nothing to do, so we started making our own songs. It sounded awesome, at least, to my ears. And I still love the part where I sing "Siiiil..VER~~". Yes we were singing silver in hopes of it becoming true. Just to let you guys know, I sang the highest note in our composed songs, and when I attempted to go higher, the others covered their ears( It was too powerful and sharp for them, and of course, I was using my falsetto). We also have our own mixed versions of the pieces we sang in our SYF, it was fun, to sing in this relaxed form.
I unintentionally scared my jie(kimberly) when I went into the room to search for my water bottle. They were sharing ghost stories then, and the room was pitched dark. I switched on my torchlight and placed it under my chin, letting it shoot upwards. It creates the "I-have-the-hollow-face" effect which looks as if you have no sockets and stuff. And a scream came towards my direction( My jie's), she asked me not to do that- I guess she was too scared then, I meant, she went out to cry one time when she was unable to take it.
We went down near blue room and waited for the news. When Mdm Ho took the call, it seems like she took ages before telling us the news. She tricked us by getting into this posture that "Uh-oh, this is not to be expected( in a bad way)" and walked towards us "dragging" her feets. "Choir..." she said, and everyone went silent. There was a deafening silent when she came again.."We've got COP..". And a second later,"no la, we've GOT SILVER!!" She exclaimed as we all cheered with our entire being. I was stunned then, still not able to take the fact that we got silver, so I went into this mode of "we get silver, we get silver, we g...". And then it gets happier and happier when I suddenly let out tears of joy from the floodgates. It was really embarassing, crying like that in front of friends, at least I am not the only one- quite a number cried. We hanged out for dinner awhile later and went home straight after that. This could be said, as the best day of my life!
P.S. :NO photos thanks to YOU-KNOW-WHO
P.S.2 : I told you that it would be long
Monday, April 13, 2009
Early birds catches the worms
Somewhere during the near end of choir yesterday, our instructor told us something though-action provoking- that MayFlower secondary CHOIR members have started waking up as early as 4:30am in the morning so that they can sing better later on. Then Mdm Ho ask if we need this kind of treatment( Some choirs sounds EEeee in the mornings), he said yes. But that doesn't mean that they enforced this rule of waking up at 4:30am to us, it was just a piece of information to push us.
But no, some of my juniors took it serious and asked if I could wake them up at that time and treat(treated) me bubbletea if I consent. Well, I just finished sending the alarm signals, but they show no sign of responding( Lazy people). For me? It's quite normal, because I ALWAYS wake up at this time. For homework. It's great, doing it at night- serene and calm(it's raining) and all that. There's a con to it though( and no, it is not the lacking of sleep, I sleep earlier than the others): What happens if you need more time than 1hr 30mins? Oh the horror! It has happened to me before, but nothing serious.
SYF is just round the corner and I can't helped but to progressively improving my singing..I really hope that nothing could go wrong on that day, I really don't. Seeing that band(gold) and dance(silver) acheived good results, I can't help but to think that what if the choir doesn't? It's mortifying. Then again, I HAVE been practicing whenever I have the chance, but the most standard practice schedule is when I walked to school; It get rids of my boreness and it's fun- what else would I bargain for? I hope that everyone does the same with their singing! Or I personally swear to haunt you forever...-touches wood-. Haha, JYJY
But no, some of my juniors took it serious and asked if I could wake them up at that time and treat(treated) me bubbletea if I consent. Well, I just finished sending the alarm signals, but they show no sign of responding( Lazy people). For me? It's quite normal, because I ALWAYS wake up at this time. For homework. It's great, doing it at night- serene and calm(it's raining) and all that. There's a con to it though( and no, it is not the lacking of sleep, I sleep earlier than the others): What happens if you need more time than 1hr 30mins? Oh the horror! It has happened to me before, but nothing serious.
SYF is just round the corner and I can't helped but to progressively improving my singing..I really hope that nothing could go wrong on that day, I really don't. Seeing that band(gold) and dance(silver) acheived good results, I can't help but to think that what if the choir doesn't? It's mortifying. Then again, I HAVE been practicing whenever I have the chance, but the most standard practice schedule is when I walked to school; It get rids of my boreness and it's fun- what else would I bargain for? I hope that everyone does the same with their singing! Or I personally swear to haunt you forever...-touches wood-. Haha, JYJY
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Stress
In the early years of my secondary school life, I always appear to be sloppy without worries nor stress( or so someone says), and yet did good in my studies- I managed to get into 4e2 without studying( It is sheer luck, I promise!). But now, I can't be proud and announce that I wouldn't study at all, it's all coming down at me, all in one full wave: the workload I have procrastinated, the heavy sec 4 topics. It is not just a game of luck anymore, it is a match of competence with all the other graduating students- to see who could strive further and reach the spots they want.
The coming of SYF did not helped much in my academic situation either, but that doesn't mean that I am blaming it; I chose choir in the first place no? My choice, my set of responsibilities. Though I can't help but to wish that SYF could end earlier, so that I could really focus on my studies. That situation, however, might get rid of choir's chance to get a silver, so I'd really prolong my torture for awhile rather than missing my last chance. Right?
"A student leader is someone who manages both his academic and CCA well," that's what I have heard somewhere and have forgotten the source. I guess I should really plan my daily activities well, so that I could maximise my input instead of wasting meaningless time with my nonsensical stuffs( and that excludes blogging, it is suppose to improve my english).
Anyway, Ms Soh, noticed how "hardworking" her class is, decided to force upon them to start memorising phrases and structures. Which is a good thing, I guess. Being lazy for too long makes me "forget" about how to work hard. Blessing in disguise? I guess.
P.s. Running out of time here, so the things I say get's shorter and shorter :P
Saturday, April 4, 2009
It's been awhile...
It suddenly dawned to me that I have not written any blog entries since the March holiday ended. Why? That's the first question I asked myself. Recalling the things I have done for the past few weeks, I came up with the conclusion that my tight schedule, as well as the breakdown of my laptop discontinued my blogging streak. Now that I am up back writing, I have decided to re-dominate the multiply website again with my cheesy lines, hoping to once again improve my not-so-perfect english along with my brain. I just have this feeling that I have not been thinking as much as before: my focus gradually slips away whenever I tried to enforce it to a task. Hell, I even felt drowsy during some lessons! My friends told me that it was the heat( they almost slept too), however, I personally feel that the heat should not be a pretext used for our unresponsible behaviour- I am guilty of not sleeping as much as I should.
At the same time, I can't deny that I derserve some sympathy from the others too; SYF( Singapore Youth Festival) is just round the corner and I can't help but to be haunted by this suffocating air around me. Chest tightens whenever I think of the date: 17th August. It is not just a day when I sing and that's it. It's the day where we show to the whole school that choir can do something too. A day where everyone has been working forward, and the day where I will officially step down from choir, the day of my last performance. It saddens me to say that we would not be together after that, I know I can visit them from time to time, but that would only make me feel worst( I believe), as I would not be able to sing with them anymore. I just hope that I could walk away this school basking with proud and joy that I was once in this choir. It's disheatening but I have to say this, even my optimism has it own limits. Sometimes I just can't help but to feel that there is no sense of urgency in the choir; they still appear to be sloppy and slacking whenever possible, even defiance when scolded( for some).
Still, I can't bring my heart to let them go. I am used to do all stuffs for choir, who would accomplish them when I am not around? Will the said person do good with his/her new job? Also, who would help the baritones now? They have not reach up to the standard to lead yet and it's a long way to go. Perhaps inducing them with harsh situations will help tighten them up, but what if they are not resilient enough? Would they let go of the responsibilty? I have heard that a few of the seniors in choir had entertained thoughts about letting go after SYF and are still entertaining with it. What would happen to choir in the future? How I wish to foresee it now, so that I could get rid of the problems.
The only thing that I can find comfort in, is the presence of our instructor, Mr Chen, as well as the teachers-in-charge. I know they would not give up on choir easily, and will do anything to halt choir's ultimate demise. They will hold on to it, that I am sure. But are they able to hold it well? Afterall, it's not their choice that choir will be there, instead, it's the students choice. Sure, the adults can do alot of stuff, but what if the members are bend on quitting, what can they do? Nothing. So many things I want to prevent, yet as powerless as I am, I could only hope for the best. I feel so pathetic now. Time flies when you enjoy, that I finally understood, Deep in regret now as I failed to see it and cherish every moment, I guess that's what you will get when you take everything for granted. Absolute regrets: why didn't I do that in the first place?
Sorry for such an emotional post for my comeback, I just can't help it; just like many things I life.
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